Elusive thought yet unbearable

1. A thought propagates and leaves its traces in empty space- like the footsteps of an invisible and weightless elephant…
2. I follow that thought, as if the thought were not the product of my own mind- so familiar yet so funny.
3. Then a sound is heard- as if a gun went off- and the thought flies away. It was the sound which normally is created by the operation of our own mind- aiming at a woman who was allured by her naked image in a dream.

4. Thought is like a silent and bright bee of light. We need the light to see the bee hidden in our minds. But as soon as we turn on that light, the bee disappears-
5. Our thought is blinded by the light it needs to shed upon the mind in order to make visible its own content. What we finally perceive is the shadow of our thought- an eclipse of our own mind.
6. Incidentally this is also how science works. For example in order to observe the sun we need the sun to be eclipsed by another planetary object, like the Earth or the moon, so that its corona is made visible. Still we are observing part of the sun, just one of its aspects.
7. Nor should I forget to mention the notorious uncertainty principle: Observing an electron with light (a photon), the electron is disturbed so that we don’t know anymore where exactly the electron is to be found.
8. This is the description of a Feynman diagram concerning light (a photon): A closed loop of light (a photon) splits into two, an electron and a positron. Then it recombines into a photon, which moves away in empty space.
9. Is this process totally symmetrical? Has the recombined photon the same energy as the original photon? Or is there another ‘particle’ which appears (accounting for the difference in the energy)?
10. I guess that there will always be one particle or another left over, traceable as long as our instruments get better. But had we ever known where the ‘particle’ used to be, before the observation took place?
11. Do we know where a thought comes from before it is produced? Is there space and time before our thought creates the conditions of somewhere to move and how long it takes?
12. Is there something more to this process of recreation? Is there anything more than the space and time our thought produces, so that it finds some space to move and knows when to stop?

13. A thought is silently gliding in empty space like an invisible snake… Then it turns around and bites its tail…
14. Like a snake or a particle, thought is an object, a closed loop, a process which returns to its origin, so that it can prove its self- existence.
15. Why does our thought need so much silence to appreciate itself? Why do we need to make so much noise to believe that our ideas are gaining space?

16. Is perfection achieved after we have collected all the divine pomegranates? Can the roar of a tiger be reminiscent of our inspiration? Does necessity come from the guts of an abyssal fish? How can a conception be so light yet so unbearable? How much effort should one spend to have one’s own attention?

8/4/2018

Painting: Dream caused by the flight of a bee around a pomegranate a second before awakening, Salvador Dali